15 Dec 2020 - 2nd Beta HcG Test

Assalamualaikum wbh, 

Hari ni 2nd Beta HCG test which is 2nd pregnancy test. I did the first test last week on 11th Dec. Result was Positive. I am technically pregnant. However doc is a bit concerned that the reading was a bit on the low side. So she scheduled another test 4 days later which is today. During the 4 days i continued with all the meds and jabs. So today is the day. 

Pagi2  lagi dah gerak dari rumah, sebab kena sampai di Sunfert pada pukul 8. Alhamdulillah arrived at 8.02 am. Amek blood sample and have to wait for 2 hours for the result. Yg bosan sikit, the only kedai makan yg bukak is Starbucks, so terpaksa lah lepak dan makan sini, to kill 2 hours.  pukul 10.45 baru jumpa doc for the result.. Ya Allah semoga Allah kabulkan permintaan kami utk seorang lagi zuriat soleh. 

Farhan hari2 akan datang bari salam dekat adik dia. 

Assalamualaikum adik. 

Adik dok elok2 dalam tu ye, pegang mama kuat2. 

Nanti kita main sama2 tau. 

Then he bacakan fatihah utk adik dia. Allahu, syahdu sangat. Memang nak sangat adik si Farhan ni. Hari2 ada dialog dan senario dia dan adik, gitu gini. Memang tersentuh hati kalau tgk gaya dia. Kalau aku dan ed soh gi main dkt bilik dia, dia akan jawab. An pon nak duduk dekat adik. Biarla an baring sini. Alolo, oklah..oklah..

Aku memang anxious. every day akan anxious sangat. No matter how many times you lalui treatment ni, memang akan berdebar sangat. Ya Allah kabulkanlah doa kami, kuatkanlah janin ini, semoga menjadi anak soleh/solehah.

Kali ni checkup dengan Dr Wong. Bila masuk muka dia serius je, aduyai risaunya. 

DW : Ok kalau tengok the result memang reading ni you are pregnant. Kalau u buat pregnancy test dkt luar pon you akan dpt result pregnant. Cuma bacaan HcG ni rendah.  Here's the reading is 330. you should be nearing 1000 already by now. 

Aku terdiam. Ed pon sama. 

DW : The last time masa u miscarry was it like this?

Aku : Reading masa awal2 was OK, cuma then it stopped growing

DW : Ok, lets continue with the meds and support. There are cases where, the baby will catchup and grow as normal. I'll see you in a week. We don't need to do a blood test again. If its good then we can see the baby through the scan. 

Aku dah tak tahan nak nangis masa tu. Went outside and duduk kat luar. Aku dah start crying masa tu. Luckily we were all wearing face mask, so tak nampak la sangat tgh nangis, if not sure nampak hidung dan muka merah sgt tu. 

Ya Allah, I was devastated masa tu. Ed cakap. Com you are pregnant. the reading did double every 48 hours, cuma tak cukup tinggi je. Kita doa dan doa dan doa ok. 

Memang onwards tu, kami berdoa tak putus. Aku tgk Ed baca Yasin hari-hari. some days aku baca dengan dia. Most days aku baca siangnya while he is at work. Ya Allah kurniakanlah kami seorang lagi anak yang soleh dan sihat. Sihatkanlah anak dalam kandungan ini Ya Allah. Semoga kami dapat lihat dia next checkup nanti. Amin Ya Robb.