23 Disember 2020 : 1st Antenatal Checkup

Semenjak dapat feedback daripada Dr Wong from last visit. Aku sangat-sangat anxious. Risau sangat-sangat. Aku memang follow betul-betul jadual makan ubat, insert ubat dan jab. Masa pregnancy kedua tahun 2015 dulu, aku rasa kami rilex sangat dan over confident. Aku kejer cam biasa once dapat confirmation dah pregnant, dan ada masa-masanya terbabas waktu untuk pakai ubat dan jab, which is a big no-no utk pregnancy thru IVF ni. So this time around, aku memang tak take things for granted. Actually aku tulis tau pasal pregnance 2nd tu. tapi aku delete most of it, when we lost he baby at 9 weeks. 

Memang banyak-banyak2kan berdoa je kami. Aku hari-hari dok menggelisah kerisauan. Aku dah mula tak leh makan pedas dan rasa nak heartburn start last week lagi. Tekak aku memang tak leh makan pedas, kemabang semacam. Kepala gatal giler, jerawat dkt muka dan badan dah mula ada, and my breast is really sore, cam kena pukul je. Ada hari2 rasa cramping sikit. tapi takde spotting lagi, unlike my 2 previous pregnancy. 

Hari ni ada checkup dekat Sunfert. At 2.45 off we went to Bangsar South. Walaupun org ckp jauh la and so on. From our house, the medical centre is so accessible, terus masuk mex dan NPE pastu sampai. Tak sempat masuk jem. Aku masa ni memang dah tak leh bercakap, tak leh senyum dah masa ni. Gi toilet entah berapa kali. Ed buat lawak pon tak layan dah. My heart was pumping soo hard. risaunya Ya Allah, berilah kesihatan yg baik pada anak kami. 

Then my turn came and the nurse asked me to pee first. I did that and dah get ready for the checkup. Doctor Wong scan, our eyes on the screen and I can see the circle in the screen. 

DW : oh, apa orang melayu cakap, Alhamdulillah!

Aku : Alhamdulillah. (tears in my eyes)

DW : Looking Good. dah nampak thru scan. ada sack with yolk, and the size pon ok. The baby has catched up. Dia slower starter but very good now. This is terrific. 

Aku : Alhamdulillah. Alhamdulillah. 

Then he talked to us both after the examination

DW : Congratulations, you are pregnant. I am very happy for you. I pon nak update my team, about this. This is why we have to go all the way, and never give up. Absolutely terrific. 

Us : Thank you doc. So baby dah semakin sihat? Dah reach its milestone?

DW : Yup. your HCG reading was low last time. thats why saya tak mahu you proceed with another blood test. This time around should be able to see the sac and yolk thru the scan. And it did. Very good. So continue what you are doing right now, we continue all the support. And i'll see you on 4th January. 

Alhamdulillah. Alhamdulillah. Alhamdulillah. Terima kasih ya Allah, atas rezekimu.  Lepas tu keluar amek meds semua. And i finally can smile and talk. Syukur ya Allah. Terima kasih pada kawan-kawan yang mendoakan.  As always tak ramai yang tahu, di peringkat awal-awal ni. But pada yang tahu, thanks for the dua. I really appreciate it, and we really need it. Masih awal lagi ni, dan masih panjang perjalanan ni, but I will be thankful for every milestone Allah has bestowed me.  Thank you Allah.